WHEN WEAKNESS COLLAPSES INTO POWER
Yesterday I had a moment where I literally was unable to breath. While training, I reached a point, where I was unable to get any air into my lungs. I was still doing breathing movements, but my lungs simply didn’t fill with air, no matter what. I got into panic mode, which made the situation even worse.
Then my practice kicked in. I knew I was having a panic attack on top of everything. It was only for maybe 15 or 20 seconds of not being able to breath, but it felt like minutes, being on the ground gasping for air like a fish on land. It was absolutely terrifying, a moment of complete lack of control, vulnerability and weakness.
But since panic attacks are not entirely new to me, after a couple of seconds I realised what was happening and what I needed to do: centring, slowly breathing in through the nose followed by along breath out through the mouth - repeat. Then I was also able to verbalise (at least to some extend) to my trainers what was happening and what they needed to do in order to support me.
And because of that, this moment was also a moment of absolute strength. It showed overwhelmingly the power of practice and how far it can go being aware of what was happening, and having the tools to change that in such an extreme situation. It is not rocket science, it is only knowing my body and her reactions very well and having practiced centring a thousand times.
It also showed the necessity of these moments of weakness. There is no strength at all without the humbling moments of being on the ground. Strength simply can’t exist without the polarity of weakness - while there is no valence in either of them. This is where the practice applies and where true power comes in - the power to chose and change, because you learned how to do that.
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